Lonely

I'm consumed by this feeling.
It's killing me from the inside out.

I - I just can't do anything right. I'm constantly failing myself. I don't care what everyone else thinks, but I care how I think of myself.

I know I let everybody down.

Within 8 hours I managed to make myself a laughing stock. A clown if you must.

I'm also consumed by the feeling of not being wanted. I'm so discouraged to look for friendships and relationships because I cling to the idea of happiness.

A happiness I know I will never earn.

I don't try and I try. I cry and I ignore. I'm cursed with loneliness and I'm cursed with bad luck

I just wish I could let this feeling go

I find it so difficult to be with people. It's growing inside of me. The urge to just disappear. I just want to forget it all.

I'm searching for something to keep my fire burning

As long as I'm alone, my sparks will never come to light