Passed the Test

I can't believe we are in the third week of the new year and not once have I expressed myself in the way I know best... writing. 

The consequence of being so consumed in life and not pausing for a moment to think results in stress, anxiety, and uncertainty. 

Before we dive in I would like to wish you a happy new year to those of you that have adventured on this journey with me. May you all find the strength and determination to achieve all that you want in this life. 

2021 was one of the most chaotic years filled with countless struggles. A test that was ongoing for 365 days to determine if I was worthy of my successes. 

After years of disconnect from my family, I had swallowed my pride and made peace with them and our past. The power of conversation is significant and now the healing process continues. 

In order for me to have a fresh start in Sydney, I had to leave the old me behind. That can be both a blessing and a curse. It doesn't matter who I am now if I have open wounds from those back home.

Once again I proved that people can change.

Have you been told, "you're the same and you'll never change"? 

Are you waking up every day to better yourself to have others doubt your ability to improve, to grow?

I want you all to remember that actions really do speak louder than words. 

Consistently putting in the effort to be the person you're pushing to be is proof and an example that you are trying to be different. 

Sometimes we slip or hit an obstacle. 

You didn't get the promotion you wanted, or another person that promised to stay- didn't. We can't foresee everything. Honestly, barely anything is predictable these days. 

If you're walking to your destination and there's a tree in your path, what do you do?

You can't go through it and you can't go over it.

You take a step back and go around..an alternative pathway. 

This doesn't mean the destination has to change.

From country to city, from nothing to something.

Bloggers,

the one thing I have learned already this year is to not lose yourself to other people. Stick to your roots. We may grow and change as we age but where we come from doesn't. 

Sydney has tested my loyalty to my morals, but I remember who I am and what I came here to achieve. 

I am so blessed to be where I am now and so proud of myself for never giving up and finally believing in myself. For once, I feel like 8 year old me would smile if she knew I'd be who I am today. 

There are many times when we question why some people go through more traumatic experiences than others.

Take each painful memory and use it as a lesson. 

Without these experiences, you wouldn't be the strong person that you are today. 

Don't let what they did to you, define who you are. 

For a long time, I allowed my hurt to become me. It took control of my life and it ate away at me for so many years and my judgment was clouded by hatred and anger. 

Eventually, you have to let it go. 

The world doesn't owe you anything despite what you feel it has done to you. 

Only you can decide that you're ready to be happy.

Once you take your control back and learn to accept things as they come, the weight will disappear and you will finally appreciate the journey rather than the final destination. 

Like for me right now. 

I was feeling certain pressures (caused by myself) and up until now, I hadn't realised what they were and how they were making me feel. 

All I do is push myself. Being in this position is so amazing and it inspires me to keep pushing myself to achieve even more. 

However, this constant pressure to be better can sometimes make me feel like I'm not doing enough when in fact I am doing my very best. 

Sometimes you need to pause for a moment and appreciate yourself. 

You are a vessel and you need to ensure you check everything is running smoothly. 

Forever grateful for all that I have now and for the person I became despite those that stood in my way. 

Remember that you have the courage and the strength to achieve all that you set your mind to. 

Until next time,

Goodnight. 

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