This World Is Yours

 I can't believe how long it's been since I last blogged. 

Truth be told, my plate has been overflown and I am juggling work, personal and social life while standing on one foot. 

Chuck said to Blair on Gossip Girl, "Never let anyone make you feel like you aren't a powerful woman. You are the most powerful woman I know". 

I guess you could say it was the reminder I needed. Reflecting on the events that took place in order for me to get to where I am, I remember what it takes to become the independent, unstoppable force that I yearned to be. 

The last 3 months have been a complete blur of alcohol, laughter, flashing lights, and dancing. That young version of I with a voice, enthusiasm, and passion resurfaced once again. Proving that in one-way shape or form, people can redeem themselves, and in a way, return from the dead. 

Now, with phase 1 of becoming the woman I wish to be is complete, phase 2 must begin. 

Phase 2 is to focus on my work and return to that determined, inspired, and aspiring businesswoman that I have created over the years.

Bloggers,

As I was laying comfortably in my sheets the other evening, my mother had sent me a message with a video someone else had created that said they love us as much as they can although they are sorry that it might not be the way or amount that we may want or need. 

I didn't realise how much that had affected me until I remembered it last night as I was crouched on my carpet with waterfalls flooding my eyes. 

Bloggers,

Sometimes we have to walk away from people or situations that we finally determine only bring us down in life rather than lift us up. 

Being able to recognise a toxic scenario and having the strength and courage to walk away is something to be proud of yourself for. 

However, no one should expect you to feel weak if at times you miss those you had to leave behind. 

You shouldn't be made to feel guilty for putting yourself first when you never could. 

For years I drowned myself in order to save them and buried the truth, my story, my pain while going to war just for their acknowledgment and in the end, we all lost. 

This war was never my battle to fight. 

Since being collateral damage of others demons, I set on a journey to make my own path, destiny, whatever is you believe in. 

I am Samara Ward and you are You. 

This world is ours for the taking. 

We must take care of our mind, body, and soul. Never allow yourself to stay in a situation or environment that doesn't allow you to grow into the powerful being waiting to be released inside of you.