humbling thoughts burning within.
The demons that I face in my head,
where shall I begin?
The envy burnt in my eyes,
as I felt my mothers steps.
The thought of belittlement from that man,
punctured me in the chest.
Friendly faces cursing cruely,
my eyes constantly a pool.
Loss of my family members,
my life was just a tool.
Looked down on by those I needed,
the ones who could heal this pain.
Not even my closest friends,
could take some of these feelings away.
My first love so selfish to me.
Screwed nails into my heart.
The dwelling want for all of this,
to eventually fall apart.
Dreaming of all my sadness,
waking up to the same thoughts.
Never did I think I would face,
someone else who has fought.
I try to cover this sadness,
but every other day I fall a part.
a daily reminder of who I don't have anymore,
wishing I could restart.
I never succeed in relationships;
family, friend or foe.
I never get looked at like a star,
the brightness, purity and glow.
I belittle myself just as much,
as everyone else already does.
I m praying for my old life,
surrounded by enduring love.
I yearn for someone out there,
to see me for who I really am.
Just a little, small town girl.
Searching for a friend.
I've never been part of this world,
I am a galaxy away.
My heart has been broken too often,
Waiting for a better day.
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