Melbourne cleansing

I'm here

I'm in central Melbourne City 

I can't comprehend to you how beautiful this environment is. The vibes are mind blowing and the people are so kind

From my balcony I have a view of "Sea Life"  - Melbourne's aquarium - and one of many train tracks and heritage buildings

The water is in eye shot and a roof top tennis court to my left 

A skyline of buildings and many tram tracks

This is a city I want to return to 

I'm stumbling upon many thoughts 

I reached out to my sister last night while slightly under the influence of bitter beer

I still feel as though this is the year of connection. I have urges inside of me to contact those whom I have lost.. 

This fresh Melbourne air is making me ponder on the idea of a new beginning 

When I graduate I will be starting university next year. That means if move here I will more than likely meet someone who I wish to begin a relationship with.

What if I don't want to have a family in Melbourne?  What if the person I am with wants to stay and I wish to live away and move forward? 

I don't understand how my life will work out. Atleast I have a whole year to re think that scenario. 

I spent $300 on shopping in the last 24 hours and there is nothing I want to continue doing more. I'd say this is my release from all these dwelling questions 

A new year and I certainly have had an interesting 16 days

As the trees blow in the wind, I too am blown away by the sights in this world.

I'm free. 

I am no longer in the city of mother, father, carer, "friends"  or Sam Harrison. 

I'm the second night in and I already wish to call this city my home. 

Secretly, I wish to stand in front of one of the oldest buildings here and admire the architecture and the culture that has been presented in It's presence 

I then wish to enter this enormous beauty, standing in awe at the amazement it has put me in

Across from me is a graffiti building just slightly higher than my floor level (9)

At 10:00pm tonight I am to reach the top of it and express the battles in my head

I am to become clear to myself what I Want and who I am to be 

Tonight is the night my cleanse will begin