What am I supposed to do this year?
The ending of 2015 left me with a hundred - if not more - unanswered and answered questions and lessons learnt of who and who not to trust
I learnt versions of myself and this year could only be one step closer to the discovery of me, myself and I
I'm battling myself already with questions I wish to have the correct answers to
I choke on the thought of the mere memory of my child hood
My family United as one
I'm more than 50,000 feet in the sky about 40 minutes out of the Gold Coast
I have begun my cleansing journey to Melbourne City
Memories with my sister - the one I no longer know - hover my dwelling mind and I sinfully wish these moments were present
Is this a year to connect?
A year of connection? Hmm..
Maybe I do wish to go back to how things used to be, though I am reminded it isn't my decision to be so far separated from everyone
In fact, to their disclosure they do not wish to have relationships with me
"they" - referring to those who have either
- Hurt me
- Left me
- Disliked our relationship, or
- No longer maintain a connection
Maybe this year I am not only to discover myself and connect with my family, but also to love myself and someone who needs love in their life just as much as I
Who knows
Maybe at the beginning of 2017 I will be comfortably in my new room at my mother's
I must set goals if I am to get into Bond
I must succeed in getting entry into this university
For the moment I am going to enjoy my first holiday in what seems like forever
I will hopefully have more answers ony arrival home
Over and out, hovering some city between GC&MLBNE
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