What is the next step to growing up?

"What is the next step to growing up?"

How do I go from working at McDonald's to making a living?
How do I go from an idea to a successful campaign?
How do I go from school girl to woman?
How do I go from friends to friendships?

HOW, How, how

In the last week, I have had more people worry about who my new friendships are, than how I am doing dealing with the reasons as to why I want new friends.

In the last week, I have had several serious conversations with many different parties about being aware of who I am friends with.

Why can't people be happy for me? I found mature people who I am growing with.
Besides that, forget them.

My mind is exploding. I have so many concepts and ideas to organise for this Operation Defrost Campaign. I already have several contacts willing to help and share for this big opening!
I'm in awe at the amount of people who are inspired by this idea! I am also surprised at how many of those are NOT my closest friends.

It's funny how these horrible "drug-user" friends of mine are ecstatic about launching this program with me, and are so inspired by my spirit for this idea and how many of my straight A school friends couldn't care less.

Society is fucked.
STOP STERO-TYPING.

People who take party drugs are STILL PEOPLE.

THEY FEEL.
THEY LOVE.
THEY CRY.
THEY HURT.
THEY FUCK UP.
THEY MOVE ON.

Why are people so cruel? Don't forget to mention judgmental.

So, Here I am, in Ipswich on a Friday night and... I'm stuck.

How do I make my big entrance into this world? I found what I often forget within myself. My passion for writing. My strive for screenwriting and storytelling. I have never been so ready to tell everyone who I am and what I am all about.

Is it possible for someone to be so goal driven?

How sad is it for me to share with you all that I am being judged for being so positive. Throughout last year when everything happened with my family I had so much anger and negativity. I was swallowed by this big, empty pit of darkness and it felt like I would never find a way out. I lost so many relationships, and even myself. Now that I am better, and trying to improve, here I am, yet again, being rejected for being happy. It makes me wonder what people really want from me as a person?

No matter what you are, happy or sad, you will always have people who will fight against you. You just have to find a way to live with yourself. Live with a side of you that can handle the fact that you are on your own and the decisions you make must be to support yourself.

You can't rely on the people who expect you to be emotional, aggressive, content... You have to rely on you.

For now, I'm going to keep writing. I am going to finish Operation Defrost, and I will be on the credits of the biggest movie of all time.

I'm trying to deal all on my own