Evolution by Year

Something is upsetting me.

Hello Bloggers.

For the past week I have been quite sick. Now that my immune system no longer exists, I am catching just about everything and anything. The joys of having my body.

For the first time in a few days I reached an overwhelming point tonight. It was as if I took one, deep, sigh, and my tears - what seemed like - fell out of my eye lids. A quick, yet gentle, sob.

It has come to my realisation that my brother is leaving sooner than I am ready for. This also means I have to take a step up and be the next person on the lease for the house I live in. Some how, far, far, down, I have branched to the thought that people two years older than me are twenty.

Slowly, gliding down the snowy tracks, year twelve is coming to an end.

In the past seven months I have lost my old relationships, to find fresh personalities whom I connect with.

Last year, I lost everything. It was a year to mourn the old me and truly understand what life has left me with.

This year I am, or was, to learn how to become independent and responsible. A year to prepare me for the next..

I suppose next year there is no family, no friends and just I.

How could I forget!?

My BOND interview was last Friday!

They insured I would receive a letter which would offer me a position at their University!

Though if I am a Scholar, I will not know until September!

I am so sick, tired and stressed but I know that this year will be a leap of greatness. The foundation of opportunities.

If I must say so, Sam Harrison has been passing my thoughts every now and then. I still see his face on men that aren't his and I still fear my reaction if and when I am to face the devil himself.

How does God stand up to his demons?

My dreams have been corrupt as my soulless body collapses across the bed sheets. Waking up with my head turned every which way.

Something is feasting under my brain cells. My curiosity, or maybe confusion (i don't know), is capturing me.

Ugh, what a messy blog post, yet again.

A perfect representation of where my head is at lately.

So many thoughts, such little canvas.