Chaotic 2 weeks

What seems like a lifetime and I have finally returned.

2 weeks.

What has happened?

I have graduated (kinda), received a job, have full-time company and of course schoolies.

I was burdened by a text explaining that I was no longer eligible for QC points which means I failed to graduate year 12. I was still blessed enough to receive a certificate and a huge amount of appreciation from those closest to me.

It hurt. Like being punctured in the soul.

Last year as the year twelves walked out I had found myself sobbing immensley. I had feared I would be graduating alone. Maybe it was the begining of my psychic tuition because as this year flew around; i was in fact all alone.

My father couldn't attend my formal due to work, of course. I understand but something shattered inside of me seeing all my pain-endured old friends surrounded by their happy parents and I had no one.

It felt as though it reflected who I was as a person.

There was nothing I wanted more than to feel and to look like a million dollars on this one special day. At last minute I wound my partner up and ordered he buy a suit, PRONTO.

$8 wine in hand and my good friend attending to my face which she had paid for. It came to show peoples true colours. Those who are there for me and who is not.

I left formal early. This overwhelming sickness consumed me. I assume it was the depression and anxiety that flooded me for the week.

I must say the past week my demons have slightly lifted from my shoulders.

There is a sense of peace coming to mind.

So after stressing considerably about finances, I finally set out to find a job.

To my complete surprise I was given a job on the spot at a clothing botique called "All About Lila".

Lila was the owners daughter who had passed away. All designs are created by her. How beautiful she must have been to imprint  on her families lives the way she did.

2 job interviews at Vapianos and Hog's Breathe and unfortunately I was not successful. Though I shall take this as a blessing in disguise and take the next challenge head on.

Ahh, Miki. Tim's girlfriend whom had lived with us for nearly a year departed back to Japan. Sadly enough, Tim to be following very shortly (Read 165 Days without you).

I will be sure to write about schoolies tomorrow as I have some company whom had just arrived.