Deal or Detonate

 I've been inspired. 

After drowning in my tears like a letter in a bottle, adrift in the crashing seas, I found refuge. A small place that was right in front of me this whole time: myself. 

Book ideas coming seemingly, flooding my mind again like the gates to Heaven have opened up but for my ideas, my imagination - for once, not to take the ones I love away. 

The courses I have chosen to prepare me to have the best of abilities to complete these novels and to write a screenplay that will leave your mind spinning. The kind of storyline that finished but leaves you feeling, leaves you wondering. Pulling on all the strings that make your heart throb and your brain baffled. 

I mean, what else am I to do with 21 years worth of nightmares? 

Why not share some of the most extraordinary stories, characters and alien like figures? From demons, to angels, to roller coasters and crocodiles. War zones to moments that made me question what was real and what was my imagination.

Okay, so there I was laying, surrounded in my pillows, staring at the fan. Spinning the same speed as my head. Unsure of which way was up and what was keeping me from moving forward. I decided to start finding solutions to these unfathomable questions. 

When there's so many thoughts swarming it's important to tackle one issue at a time. What can you solve right now? What can't you control? What takes a little more time?

Prioritise. 

I can't study for 2 weeks. Therefore, my novel writing is still on hold for the mean time. My note book building like sky rises full of literature. Snapshots of ideas. You may have photo albums,  I have memories in writing. 

While I wait to begin the education I have been missing I have set a goal to begin creating content for my social media platforms. 

My podcast "Samara Says" being on hold and undergoing a new inspiration project under an anonymous name. 

I will be posting to inspire my followers while building up my networks and visibility online. 

This way, when I have work or writing to promote after it has been completed I can share this with those that supported and are interested in the work that I have created.

Bloggers,

We have to remember that short term goals are sometimes more important than our long term ones. 

When you feel unsure of where to start, try the very first step. Even if for you, that's asking the right questions.

"Who has the ability or the knowledge to help me figure out where to start?"

"What industry or organisation do I want to work for?"

"What are my strengths and weaknesses?"

Depression. We often fall into our negative vices. Forgetting which path we want to focus our energy on because sometimes that energy just doesn't exist. Vanishing into oblivion along with our courage and confidence. 

Open the windows. Tell yourself when you cannot wake up that you have to. Think of it as life or death. In reality - it is. 

We only have one, minuscule lifeline that could detonate at any second. 

Whatever it is that is paralysing you is the parasite that only you can remove. 

Imagine someone leeching from you. Draining you of your power, your emotions, your strength. Are you going to allow a parasite to steal from you or are you going to fight it? 

Don't allow fear, doubt or negativity deter you from having a passion, from loving, from sleeping without nightmares consuming your every thought.

Find that solution, that pathway to remind you of who you are. 

Someone recently asked me "who do you think you are?".

and it made me think..

Who do you think you are?

Do you like it? 

I'll leave that with you readers, Just remember that you are the only obstacle standing in your way from achieving everything you ever wanted. We have no boundaries.. unless you restrict yourself.

Let those chains go, no one else is resisting but you.