These Are My Wings

There is this hunger inside of me.

This little girl screaming to escape.

A potential born within. 

Aspiring, transitioning, glowing.. Like the most beautiful display of lights you have ever seen; maybe the Northern lights. 

Avalanches, snow crashing on my surroundings and in the glistening reflections, despite it all, the most mesmerising site with such a story. An explanation as to the creation of what is.

If I restrain myself from the creativity I have, inspired by the sadness and the laughter gifted by friends, strangers, co-workers and enemies, what would my fingers construct?

How will I win if I never lose?

It is not that I am not wanting to be held down but more so to avoid sitting still in life replicating a snowman; awaiting the misery and depression of stillness to melt my soul entirely..

There is this tickle in my throat, a kick to my walk that makes me feel there is something more than what I can see, than what I have felt.

That I was destined to be greater than what I am told. What I had believed. 

But you see, you can have all the knowledge or power in the world but without action you are and you have, nothing. 

Like a deck of cards with no games. 

Or a question that has no answer.

This itch shall continue to itch until it is scratched and that kick to my walk will be just that until I decide to run.

I may have ideas but until I apply them I am just an ambitious woman like the rest. 

This is the time to make change. To finally begin the journey of a successful someone. 

My goal, in this confusing, miserable, consuming and inspiring life that we live in, is to die knowing that my life meant something. That despite everything, I know inside that I am a good person. 

No matter how many bullets shot forward, my scars only making the reward a thousand times greater.

Bloggers, Don't get me wrong, I have been am still working full time. Although, I know first hand, working a 9-5 job for someone else, helping someone else achieve their dreams can be tormenting. 

Wondering how you can be the boss and why you're not already or the frustration of putting your heart and soul into a company that doesn't even think twice about letting you go.

I know. 

Sometimes being fired from a company can feel like a break up. Working really is a relationship in itself and when you have to leave the various overwhelming emotions can be crippling. 

If you believe in yourself and use your examples as guidance from what to, and what not to do, you can achieve anything. 

It's time I start taking my skills and passions and making them actions.