Sleeping with the devil

I close my eyes and drift off to sleep to awaken every fucking hour to my demons ringing in my ear.

Another experience of force and empowerment from somebody else terrorising me and my violated body.

Finding cameras in my room, screaming for help but my voice just doesn't quite get there.

Men of large sizes grabbing me and the fear that floods my body is a never ending nightmare.

Fuck you Sam Harrison.

You still have control over my most peaceful time - sleep

Oh lord, help me escape this. It's getting worse and there's nothing I want more than to see him suffer

Mum visits my dreams to
The way I remember her with a hint of evil though

I don't know how to overcome this one
Her boyfriend recorded me for months and I was stupid enough to not acknowledge this

I can't help but wonder if mum knew all along

I can't help but feel lonely

Oh mother, you abandoning fuck
Fake love and all

I'm awake now, and I'm saddened but this feeling

I crave the cheerful face of my beautiful sister but then that's another reminder that Sam Harrison and my mother are the reasons we were torn apart

May my dreams rest


Sleeping is my biggest hell