Constant

Over a month ago is when I last expressed what it was that I was feeling.

In that month and few days, my life had changed drastically.

Tim was finally rewarded with a job in Japan for a minimum of twelve months. He departs in about two weeks so I was suddenly forced to move.

Well, I could have stayed amongst the city streets of Surfers Paradise, though I figured all the memories, all the reasons I am now moving, reflect where I should now depart. 

All the argumentative nights, emotional break downs and many unsuccessful relationships, I had to let go. Like an old friend had said to me, "When I picture you I see yourself taking off this cloak, or a skin lining. Like a snake shedding it's skin.". I had started studying in the past few weeks and this spontaneous news became a sign to me. It was time to move forward with my life.

Releasing the depressive, party living, school girl has been put to bed. Like closing the final chapter to the school year book.

As my fingers progressively caress my keys, I am reminded of my love for expression.

Feelings, desires and fears.

I began my certificate 3 in Business and within 10 weeks I will have successfully completed it.

During the month of May, I am overwhelmed to explain that I will be beginning at Bond University.  

Unfortunately, the last few weeks I have been absent because of the stress surrounding the concurring events of my every day life.

Consumed in dreadful mornings, I am reflecting my problems from the days before in the following moments ahead. 

My relationship with myself and my goals have slowly been accepting sunlight. Like flowers blooming for the first time. A new cycle is happening and for the first time in months I can say that I am not in my happy place yet, but I am certainly heading for it.