Bloggers today I realised something.
You cannot let other people's mistakes effect you negatively.
Yes, the person I have been seeing for the last 6 months lost my trust and respect in an instant. Like slaughtering a cow for consumer goods. I had never felt so obliged to ensure I never see this person again, like anyone else before.
The day before he travelled to the city of lights (Melbourne), he had admitted he no longer loved me. How I see it - he never did. Him and I were supposed to be departing just a month later but like a scheming psychic I foresaw how this would all end so suddenly.
A simple online message stating that it's over and on the plane he went. Never to been seen again - on purpose.
At first; every insecurity and everything negative that I had been trying to contain for so long, just fell from my pores. I questioned for a brief moment, "what am I even doing here anymore?".
I flash backed on every moment that every one closest to me had left me in. I looked in the mirror and into the eyes of my gorgeous Gucci.
It all started to make sense.
For someone to act upon something like that, to purposely try and leave their ex partner feeling like they aren't worthy of anything; not just people, you must be fucking horrible.
I'm sorry viewers. NEVER leave someone feeling like they aren't capable to do what they want. NEVER destroy or lie to those you LOVE for the sake of saving yourself. NEVER say you love someone unless it's your family. and NEVER believe that someone will love you for the person that you are. That's something you have to do for yourself.
So I'll continue to get the job next week that I had been aspiring for. I will continue to get distinctions and high distinctions in my University degree and I will always feel at home in my own skin.
This is the final person to make me question my whole reason for breathing. I'm beautiful. I am talented writer with a heart of gold. and I know the value of a rich heart and genuine intentions over seeking money and greed from those who will never provide it.
Thanks to those who broke my heart, for giving me more reasons to love myself.
But can you say the same for yourself?
You cannot let other people's mistakes effect you negatively.
Yes, the person I have been seeing for the last 6 months lost my trust and respect in an instant. Like slaughtering a cow for consumer goods. I had never felt so obliged to ensure I never see this person again, like anyone else before.
The day before he travelled to the city of lights (Melbourne), he had admitted he no longer loved me. How I see it - he never did. Him and I were supposed to be departing just a month later but like a scheming psychic I foresaw how this would all end so suddenly.
A simple online message stating that it's over and on the plane he went. Never to been seen again - on purpose.
At first; every insecurity and everything negative that I had been trying to contain for so long, just fell from my pores. I questioned for a brief moment, "what am I even doing here anymore?".
I flash backed on every moment that every one closest to me had left me in. I looked in the mirror and into the eyes of my gorgeous Gucci.
It all started to make sense.
For someone to act upon something like that, to purposely try and leave their ex partner feeling like they aren't worthy of anything; not just people, you must be fucking horrible.
I'm sorry viewers. NEVER leave someone feeling like they aren't capable to do what they want. NEVER destroy or lie to those you LOVE for the sake of saving yourself. NEVER say you love someone unless it's your family. and NEVER believe that someone will love you for the person that you are. That's something you have to do for yourself.
So I'll continue to get the job next week that I had been aspiring for. I will continue to get distinctions and high distinctions in my University degree and I will always feel at home in my own skin.
This is the final person to make me question my whole reason for breathing. I'm beautiful. I am talented writer with a heart of gold. and I know the value of a rich heart and genuine intentions over seeking money and greed from those who will never provide it.
Thanks to those who broke my heart, for giving me more reasons to love myself.
But can you say the same for yourself?
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