Philosophy of Psychosomatics

Bloggers,

WOW. 

A shift in change alters everything. 

I've been speaking a lot lately about adjusting and how well or not so well I have been handling that. 

Mentally I think I've started handling my new life much better than at the beginning. In other words; I can sleep and wake up without feeling this hollow hole gaping from my chest. 

Physically I feel sick to my stomach almost always. 

I can't stop shaking and my sheets are still draped in every which way. 

Recently I've been taking control of the situations I am most afraid of. 

You know that anxious feeling you get when you are about to do something although you have had repeated bad experiences in the past?

There I was, it was as if someone dumped me in a washing machine - drowning and crashing over and over, unable to catch my breath. Wanting it to stop but the feeling becoming overwhelming to the point of intense nauseousness - Still attempting to surrender to the current. 

If you're like me and feeling restricted, restrained from doing the things you'd like then listen closely.

Because I am me and I am lucky enough to live in a day where Google is at my fingertips, I search everything I do not know. Knowledge is power and with power comes more opportunity and understanding. 

I learnt in the last week that anxiety is just like a made up fear. "Like being afraid of the monsters under your bed as a child". 

What we have experienced in the past encourages us in certain situations to enter the "fight or flight" response. 

This causing psychosomatic symptoms which lately, for me personally, seems to be in overdrive.

Palms clammy like dough, chest undergoing a chronic asthma attack and the inability to inhale any oxygen. 

Yes, it is true despite what some might say.. mental stress and fear will physically affect you. 

My advice would be to swallow your thoughts and bury them to the deepest parts of your mind and only these kinds of thoughts. 

They will pass, I can promise you that. Muster up the courage to ignore it. 

I did and in return I feel and was rewarded. 

Even if the experience didn't turn out as great as I had wanted, I would still appreciate that despite what I had told myself, I conquered my emotions. So, you should all know and believe that you can too. 

Anxiety. 

It's the reason you reschedule, need multiple breaks, and are afraid to share who you are with anyone. 

It's the nightmares, the sleepy mornings and being the observer not the observed. 

There is something else I would like to say. 

I feel better. 

This week I shall be returning to study and I couldn't be more excited to share with you my writing. 

Like the evolution of man from ape, I have developed and altered to my habitat. 

Although it seems as if humanity have devolved - man to ape.

Serenity, peace, freedom. 

You can have it all. You have it all already. The only person telling you otherwise (that matters), is you. 

Next time you hear the satanic whispers of "you can't do it", remember that you can. 

God doesn't place you in situations that you cannot handle. 

Row your canoe away from any negative people and don't remove yourself from situations in fear you might capsize. You are preventing yourself from the opportunity to experience something great.

For now I shall sleep.

Finally feeling good again and I am stoked but there is always room to be better.